2016 has brought me much joy, but also much sadness. It has brought me worry, anxiety, new ideas, strength, and most importantly, questions. Questions about where I’m going career wise, and in life in general.
When I look back at the struggles I’ve faced this year, there is one thing in particular that I’ve come to realize I need to work on: solitude.
Why solitude? Simply because there are have been some challenges this year that caused me to question what is best for me, and for my family. One of the options was for me to end my relationship and start all over as a single mom. The other option was to fight through the issues and work towards a solution. I am very happy that I chose the second option.
Looking back, I can see how moments of frustration and heartbreak have now lead to positive things happening. My relationship, while far from perfect, is now stronger, and we’ve learned a lot about each other in this past year.
Thankfully things worked out, but during times of uncertainty, I felt terrified of the possibility of being on my own. My mind has convinced me that the only way to be is to be a unit, that I couldn’t possibly be happy without a partner.
So that is why I believe that learning more about ourselves, and gaining personal strength is the most important resolution to make. You truly never know what the next day will bring. It is very risky to put your happiness in someone else’s hands.
Happy New Year!